My happy new year post:
I am thrilled to be bringing in 2015 and know that it's going to be a great year bc even if it's not, I'M still going to be great.
With everyone posting reflections and videos of their 2014 being "the greatest year ever" I thought well mine wasn't the Greatest for sure and I won't be posting a look at my awesome year video. I just won't post anything I thought. But why not? Why not just be real? I have always prided myself on being authentic and honest. Why mask my hard year in silence? There are many people out there that didn't have the best years ever either. And if I can touch and inspire even one person, it's worth it.
2014 brought many challenges, hardships and heartbreaks to not only myself personally but to my family. My mothers cancer and the emotional fight this year had been, our house fire and loosing everything we own and having to rebuild from nothing, to people I thought would be in my life forever not only hurting me but betraying me, and coming to the realization that I wasn't where I wanted to be in life and not doing what I was meant to do and I was actually miserable and making my family right there with me. All these things suck. They sucked bad. But I refuse to let "not having the best year ever" define me. I'm not going to focus on the misfortunes of my year but the strength and change that happened within me instead.
"Our reactions to situations have the ability to change the situations in itself"
You have to find the good in each horrible life struggle. I really do believe that without suffering I wouldn't have my compassion. Without struggle I wouldn't have the fight and work ethic I have. Without hurt I wouldn't appreciate the love in my life.
So although when I look back on 2014 I think wow that was ruff. A sense of pride washes over me. I survived that. Not only survived but really lived it and I'm a way better person, mother, daughter, wife, and friend than I once was because of everything. And that means more to me than just having one great year. Bc one really sucky year has shaped me into a person that's going to have many many great years to come. I learned from it, I grew. We can't always see it at the time but sometimes the struggle is worth the outcome. I'm entering into 2015 with a positive and thankful heart. My mother completed her treatment and is feeling stronger everyday, we rebuilt our home and learned the value in family not in things. I shed my life of negative non loyal people and appreciate and love the relationships I do have. And I have truly found myself again. What I want, who I want to be and where I want my life and career to go. I reignited my passion and love for my profession and found a studio and office that feels like home and where I'm meant to be. Im continuing my passion for makeup (that will never change) and am growing and putting more focus on my other passion, fashion. I'm learning to say no and to know the value in my time and talents and choose things I do more wisely. I'm taking time for myself, for my girls, for my husband, my family and my friends. Who where patient with me the last several year while I was just stressed and working 24/7 now it's my turn to be there for them and I truly love and appreciate the small group friends I do have! I'm on a true path of happiness knowing that I have to make my own happiness. No person or situation is going to give it to me.
I wanted to share this with you all, but more importantly for those of you who like me, didn't have the best year ever. It's ok! This year won't define you if you don't let it! Find the goodness around you, focus your energy on that. Take control and responsibility of your life and happiness. You got this! Dust yourself off and go get 2015!! Cheers to a way better 2015!!!